It’s been a whirlwind of a week. We’ve been asked to “shelter-in-place” by the Governor of California, and it’s also a directive from the POTUS until May 1st, 2020. For California, that means only essential businesses are open and we’re directed to stay at home unless it’s to get essential items like food and other basic necessities.
I closed down the store last week even though it’s an essential business because too many people were coming into the store coughing without covering their mouths. Also, I felt it was a great opportunity to spend time working on Unwage.
Health Concerns
As much as I was looking forward to the time to work on Unwage, something unexpected came at me. I’m not sure what it is yet but I’ve been seeing double vision. It’s been worrying me. I tried running the other day and I couldn’t see properly. I’ve talked to my doctor and they’re planning to set up an appointment for a neurologist. The appointment hasn’t been set yet but I plan to call again tomorrow. I think I need to see an Ophthalmologist. I’ve been terrified to find out what the problem is. I feel like this is something completely out of my control.
This really blindsided me (no pun intended). To be honest, everything has been blindsiding me as of late. The COVID19 pandemic came out of nowhere and it has affected so much already. I feel everything that I was planning for has been thrown for a loop and I think it’s affecting me whether I realize it or not. I don’t particularly feel stressed but I think it’s worrying that’s killing me.
Things Going Wrong
Bitcoin took a major hit and like an emotional idiot, I sold at a terrible time. I’ve been slowly trying to reposition in. I feel pretty stupid. The store was taking off and now I have to close for almost two months. The vision problem messed me up. And now I’m staying at home. My routine with working and working out has completely halted. I feel emotionally and mentally drained to the point where I feel depression kicking in. I’m not sure I can withstand another brutal disappointment in life.
I felt like things were finally coming together…It sucks. I’m sure there is a learning lesson from this and I’m going to learn and mature. It’s just when you’re going through the thick of things, it’s so hard to see when you’re just trying to keep your head above the water.
Progress
The good thing that has come out of this situation is that I’ve been able to make significant progress with Unwage. It looks like taking time away from the store is exactly what I needed. Looking at the bright side of things, before the lockdown, I was pretty close to finishing the store. I was in the process of hiring. Hopefully, I’ll have it mostly together when I open up the shop again. I’m praying things all work out for the best and I’ll be able to look back and see that God was in the midst of the turmoil using all things for good.
Let’s see how everything unfolds.
P.S.
I saw this on someone’s Facebook and I wanted to post it here so that I don’t forget what it was like going through this world wide pandemic.
Just so I never forget….. April 2, 2020
-Gas prices were $1.89, $1.69 in some places
-School cancelled – yes cancelled
-Self-distancing measures on the rise.
-Tape on the floors at grocery stores and others to help distance shoppers (6ft) from each other.
-Limited number of people inside stores, therefore, lineups outside the store doors.
-Non-essential stores and businesses mandated closed.
-Parks, trails, entire cities locked up.
-Entire sports seasons cancelled. Like NBA, MLB, ALL sports!
-Concerts, tours, festivals, entertainment events – cancelled.
-Weddings, family celebrations, holiday gatherings – cancelled. Funerals limited to a specific number and being live streamed.
-No masses, churches are all closed. During Easter season.
-No gatherings of 50 or more, then 20 or more, now 10 or more, and even this is encouraged to be limited to immediate family.
-Don’t socialize with anyone outside of your home.
-Children’s outdoor play parks are closed.
-We are to distance from each other. Six feet!
-Shortage of masks, gowns, gloves for our front-line workers.
-Shortage of ventilators for the critically ill.
-Panic buying sets in and we have no toilet paper, no disinfecting supplies, no paper towel no laundry soap, no hand sanitizer.
-Shelves are bare. Hard to find beef, eggs, milk. Sending one family member to shop.
-Manufacturers, distilleries and other businesses switch their lines to help make visors, masks, hand sanitizer and PPE.
-Government closes the border to all non-essential travel.
-Fines are established for breaking the rules.
-Stadiums and recreation facilities open up for the overflow of Covid-19 patients.
-Big industries help make more ventilators, & more masks for hospitals.
-Press conferences daily from the President and the governess. Daily updates on new cases, recoveries, and deaths.
-Government incentives to stay home.
-Barely anyone on the roads.
-People wearing masks and gloves outside.
-Essential service workers are terrified to go to work.
-Medical field workers are afraid to go home to their families.
This is the Novel Coronavirus (Covid-19) Pandemic, declared March 11th, 2020.
Why, you ask, do I write this status?
One day it will show up in my memory feed, and it will be a yearly reminder that LIFE IS PRECIOUS and not to take the things we dearly love for granted…. hugs, social interaction – like the real kind versus the Zoom kind, sitting in a restaurant, or in a coffee shop with a friend or family, Sunday church, Friday night family night!
We truly have so much!
Be thankful. Be grateful.
Be kind to each other – love one another – support everyone.
We are all one! ❤️ stop the division and the blaming. Seek the good! Be the good! Love well (on Zoom, or in-person when we can gather together again).