Unfortunately, the position I was interested in was already filled. However, the senior recruiter suggested another role that might be a good fit. I’m not sure it’s something I really want to do. I’m interested to find out more about it and the Sweetgreen culture but I’m not sold on it. We’ll see how it goes.
I’m not going to lie, I feel a bit lost. I don’t know what my next move is. I don’t even know where to focus my energy.
Today felt like a whirlwind of emotions. I’ve been having a hard time focusing and I was down today about not knowing what is next. I was battling with my own inner thoughts of not being good enough, being too weak to stick, not smart enough, etc. There were strong moments where I thought, “Did I make a mistake leaving?” Thankfully the way it ended gives me confidence that God’s got my back regardless. The fact that two people I haven’t talk to in a while both tell me they are quitting on the same day was the little ridiculous nudge I needed to make the decision and also sustain the decision.
I’m learning that it’s a daily trusting in the Lord. I have to be able to rest knowing that God’s got me regardless. I don’t want to waiver back and forth. I continue to do my best and not be anxious about anything. I have to fight against the thoughts of being less than. God has a plan and purpose for my life. I’m glad I wrote down all my thoughts and emotions while going through the past couple of weeks with CSS. It helps me reflect and remember why I made the decision I made. I’ll continue to move forward and trust the Lord.