What a whirlwind of a day! I couldn’t sleep at all last night. I was tossing and turning because I was so anxious thinking about quitting. But thankfully, God gave me the peace and strength to make it through today.
It was pretty amazing how everything went down today. Yesterday, while I was reading a chapter from Tim Tebow’s book, I felt the urge to text a friend of mine, Lynn, whom I’ve known for many years now. She’s a sweet older lady who I met during one of the company conventions I went to. I offered her a ride in my limo pickup for the event and we’ve been friends ever since.
I haven’t seen or talked to her in over a year but her name happened to pop into my head while reading the book. I simply texted her that I was thinking of her and hope she was well. She didn’t reply until the next morning because I texted pretty late. After barely getting any sleep and worried about how I would tell my boss, I get a text from Lynn. In her text, she tells me to pray for her because she’s quitting her job today that she’s had for 17+ years!
What a crazy message! Someone that I haven’t talked to in a while happens to be quitting the exact same day I was thinking about it. This felt like the extra little nudge I needed to make the decision. In these situations, it’s hard not to see God’s hand in it. She also sent me her daily mentoring she gets in her email and it happened to be titled “When to quit.” What are the chances? I listened to that thing a couple of times and felt I was making the right choice.
I also saw this while I was checking my email today. There were too many little things that helped me get through this. I thank God for it or I wouldn’t have had the conviction to move forward.
My plan was to tell my boss during my meeting I had planned with him. I was planning to tell him but hesitated because he started becoming nicer and more intentional about building a working relationship. That was one of the reasons why I didn’t want to be there. I didn’t feel noticed or even like part of the team. Because of this, I didn’t tell him I wanted to quit.
After leaving the meeting, I was still feeling uneasy. I tried working on the project that he gave me but I had no passion for it. I tried liking it but there was nothing there. I realized that it’s not just my boss that made the experience bad but also I wasn’t fond of the work. It didn’t fire me up. I was conflicted at this point about what to do.
However, I get a call from a friend I haven’t talk spoke to in over a year. He called because he needed advice. It so happens that he was
I eventually mustered up the courage to tell my boss after we had a team dinner. I asked to speak with him and got a conference room. I went straight for it. It was surprisingly smooth. He asked for feedback to get better and I told him honestly how I felt. He took it well and I’m glad I got it off my chest. We left on good terms.
I’m extremely thankful I made the decision and it just felt right. I thought this was going to be the perfect job but it turns out it wasn’t. It was such a blessing and I learned a lot but God has other plans. I trust His ways.
What a journey! What’s next?
