January 9, 2019 – Life After S.E.A.

Ever since getting back from South East Asia, I’ve been a bit depressed. It’s odd that being in Asia I was having a blast and then as soon as I get back I feel like I got smacked in the face by life. I was hoping that I’d get more done than expected when I was in SEA, but Network & Market turned out to be a failure. I haven’t posted in a while because I was getting adjusted again and I just didn’t have the motivation for doing it.

The business itself wasn’t a failure, but I didn’t have enough passion about the network marketing industry to press on and funds to fund the business were depleted. I think what has hindered me is the idea of encouraging people to build a business. Businesses are not easy and they have a high failure rate but my success is dependent on getting more people interested in building a business.

I’m sure I’m just projecting my own insecurities. I obviously don’t think there is anything wrong with starting a business. I love business but I just don’t think it’s for everyone. The failure rate is high and it’s tough. Society glamourizes entrepreneurs but the reality is it’s really challenging. In my previous post, I talked about why starting a business on the side while working a full-time career is the smarter choice.

At this point in my life with the experience and wisdom I have, I’d advise my future son (God willing) differently. I would always be there to support him if he were to fail but I’d recommend him finding a career he loves first and then build a business on the side. Build a level of competency in your field and then grow something on the side or build enough funds to start your own business full-time.

I made the mistake of going all into business without first establishing a baseline of skill and money. If I were to go back, I’d find a career I love and get all my formal education out of the way. I should have listened to my mom when she told me to do that.

I’m confident things will work out and there isn’ a “perfect” plan. You make adjustments and you move forward. I’m now in the process of figuring out my next move. My radars are open and I’m exploring what would be the best next step. I’m currently in a coding prep course for Hack Reactor’s boot camp. I’m on day three but I’m not sure if it’s something I love to do. The boot camp is about $18k for 3 months of training. That’s $6k for each month which is pretty ridiculous.

I’m also exploring other career options. I want to find something I love doing and I can make a career out of it. I also want to develop definable and marketable skillsets so even if things fail in business, I can make a living. I’ve updated my Linkedin profile and seeing what jobs are available in San Diego or Irvine. Another option I have on the table is Minidesk. I’m not sure what to do next…

I’m currently fasting right now. I’m on day three of the fast. The first day, just water and one cup of black coffee. The second day, fruits and veggies. The third day, fruits and veggies. The fourth day, I’ll add whey protein and I’ll end the fast on Friday night. I’m praying that God will give me joy no matter the circumstance, remove my pride, and bring back a childlike faith again. I’ve lost that. I’ve been disappointed and I’ve lost trust that God is even looking out for me. I want my childlike faith back.

My goal is to continue doing my daily journal on Milliardco. What direction I take with it will be on hold.

Until next post!