Today was a good day. I was able to wake up at 5:30 am again. It’s always a great feeling waking up before the sun wakes up. My sleep wasn’t the greatest, though. I kept waking up throughout the night, and my body just woke me up at 5:30 am without an alarm. I had it set for 7:30 am to gradually wake up earlier, but I guess my body had a mind of its own.
Today was my Sabbath, and it was a refresher. I’ve been feeling a little bit of pressure building up again on where I am in life. It’s so easy to start comparing myself to other people and think that I’m not doing enough or I’m far behind. This comparing game is the thief of all joy. It was a relief to get my mind back in the right place. You can’t worry about the things you can not change. Focus on the day-to-day on what’s in front of you and do your best. Yes, definitely plan for the long-term and think strategically, but don’t wear yourself out if you aren’t exactly getting to where you want to go.
I just had to let it all go again, breathe, and just focus on what I can do. My cycle that I keep falling into is wanting to get to the goal or destination so bad that I forget to enjoy the journey. I guess that’s why it’s important to do something you like doing because what’s the point of getting to where you want to go without enjoying the process of it. The “getting there” moment is fast fleeting when 99% is the journey. It’s like hating playing basketball, but you do it just because you want to win a championship. I guess you get the bragging rights, but the rest of the time it probably sucks.
I know it’s not always enjoying every aspect of what you do, but I think it’s wise to find something you enjoy doing because the “doing” part is a huge aspect of your life. I need to learn to love the process and appreciate what comes of it.
I was thinking I was going to do something different and more travel worthy, but I didn’t have a desire to do it. My mindset it more “mission” focused being out here. It was never about sightseeing and all that stuff. For me, it’s been getting out of my comfort zone and into a place where I can focus on what I’m working on without distractions. It might be odd for some, but I like the immersing myself in different cultures and not coming just for the touristy attractions.
When I’m not in work mode, it’s nice to visit cool sites and such, but I’m just not quite at that point yet. I enjoy the work I do, and I want to accomplish some cool stuff. Besides, I think this is my last trip like this before I seriously start thinking about settling down. I realized I don’t necessarily care for the world traveling stuff and I want to make a home somewhere.
No pictures today. I ended up eating at some old places that I’ve grown to like over here. Then I worked at a coffee shop near the home to finish up course 2 of my SEO classes.
I technically only have two full days left in Chiang Mai. It’s almost four weeks now. I plan to soak this place up with the days I do have left. It’s been great, but I also feel it’s a good time to move on.
I’m looking forward to switching up the scenery and heading to Bangkok. I’m not sure if I’ll stay the full 4 weeks there or if I’ll just stay two weeks and head to another part of Bangkok. Once I get there, I’ll see if it’s worth staying long or not, then I’ll book.
One thing I did learn while being at this new location is I definitely need a view. It brings a sense of calmness and peace when you have access to natures finest art. I’d love an ocean, river, mountain or something. The place I have in Bangkok should be pretty nice.
It’s about 9:33 pm and I’m going to sleep soon. Feels better sleeping earlier and getting up earlier.