Almost at the 3-week mark! I can honestly say it doesn’t feel like three weeks have passed. Days feel like hours over here. It’s almost like being in some weird time warp. Living in San Diego almost feels like a distant past, but it doesn’t feel like that much time has passed. It’s odd.
Today went by quickly. I got some incredible sleep last night. It helped to take the melatonin, but I think it helped too well where I slept past my alarm. The first thought that came to my mind was getting mad at myself for sleeping longer than I “should” but then I realize who cares. Why berate myself for feeling like I “wasn’t” as productive as I can be. If you’ve ever taken the strength’s finder test, one of my biggest strengths is “achiever,” which means I like to feel accomplished by doing stuff and when I’m not doing “stuff”, I feel crappy about myself. It’s a strength, but every strength has it’s “dark side” to it. One of the dark sides of an achiever is working yourself to the bone and still feeling like you’re not doing enough if you slip up. It’s helpful being aware of certain personality types because I can then moderate when the dark side rears its ugly head.
I did feel a little off today. I didn’t feel as sharp, and I was a bit frustrated. I think there is a strong correlation between the amount of work I get done and my happiness level. I believe there is causation too. This again is the achiever dark side that can quickly throw off my day.
I felt overwhelmed, which is the proper word, feeling like I bit off more than I can chew. I’ve paired back the things I’ve been working on, but there are moments when it still feels a bit overwhelming. Trying to cram too much into a short period.
Learning how to balance is always a balance in itself. A teacher of mine once said, when the question was asked of how to balance your time in different areas, and her reply was, “You can’t. Life will always feel unbalanced. There will be times when you spend a lot of time on X, and some things will take a back burner, and then Y will take up more of your time. You’re constantly rebalancing the things you have on your plate.” It caught my attention and so far in my life that has been true. Life is a constant balancing act, and there are going to be times where you put in a lot of time in work, or family, or some other thing. You just need to adapt and rebalance as you go continually.
I spent most of the day figuring out some things for Network & Market. I’m starting to get my bearings again as I’m reviewing some material. It’s helpful. As a one-man show, you have to learn how to balance your time efficiently. You have to switch from learning, building something, marketing, and thinking about the next project to focus your time on.
I just finished a big project which was completing the Ebook which ended up being 200+ pages. Now I have to get back into figuring out what is the next thing I need to create. Right now, it’s finishing up the other parts of the automated system. After that, I’ll need to get into the publishing/marketing mode. I’m excited to have almost all the pieces of the puzzle together. I’m closer than I think. That’s at least what I like to tell myself.
I think I needed a little mental escape today after work, so I ended up watching Star Wars the Last Jedi. It helped me to relax a bit and get my mind off of work. Decent movie. Now I want to know who Rey’s parents are lol.
Today was a rest day from the gym. I also didn’t get out today. I probably should have just to take a nice walk, but I kept plowing through with some training content. I also didn’t go over the SEO course today. Too much video and learning. I feel like my head was going to explode especially watching videos at 1.5 – 2X the speed. I usually only do that when I need a general understanding of a topic rather than a deep dive. If it’s content heavy, then I’ll watch it at regular speed and take notes.
I have six days left here in Chiang Mail. I was considering doing something this weekend. I probably should before I head over to Bangkok. I’ve booked my Bangkok flight and my Airbnb for two weeks. I haven’t scheduled the other two weeks yet because I want to see what Bangkok is like first. I might stay there for another two weeks or go somewhere else in Thailand. My mom and sister were considering coming out to Thailand too so might need some flexibility to meet them. Also, my brother is heading to Hong Kong so we’ll see if I can link up with him over there for a bit.
I’m beat. I plan to sleep earlier today. Yesterday, I was out by 1:30am-ish. Today I should be in bed before 1:00 am. The goal is to get back to going to sleep at 10 pm. It was especially helpful when I had that awesome view from the old place. Waking up before sunrise and having tea on the patio watching the sun slowly creep towards the heavens was breathtaking and much more incentivizing than looking out the window and seeing peoples undergarments hanging off their balcony to dry…Thankfully the view from my Bangkok place should be pretty awesome. I’ll take pics when I’m there.
That’s it for today.